i shagged a model

asia is just full of surprises! thanks to a mutual parisian cyber pal, me and one of hong kongs finest did what comes naturally after several whiskeys (his: chivas, mine: johnnie walker black) in hip and happenin zhongxiao dunhua. me here on holiday, he to make commercials, ah, how the internet brings people together.

despite my flip tone, its time we pity the gorgeous. physical perfection proves too great a distraction for the common wo/man. we require so little from beautiful people other than their superifical hotness, expecting none of the intelligence, wit, compassion or charisma we demand from the typical joan. of course the tragedy is that these showponies grow up without the prodding necessary to develop their personalities as the rest of us are distracted by their pretty faces. as a result, there seems to be an uncanny correlation between beauty and banality. of course whats most sad is that they are mere mortals who want to be complicated, who desire love and intimacy, and can feel that theyre not getting it. i know many a sad hottie.

i could have broken the cycle. as he stood before me in the buff, both of us admiring the absurd perfection of his creases and bulges, he told me that his agent thinks hes fat. a cry for help! but the only response i could muster was 'such is the biz.' hows that for compassion? but what am i supposed to say? 'how did that make you feel?' 'you have a beautiful soul.' i was drunk, horny and not in the mood for remedial personality classes.

its been curious to get my own bit of attention here. many asians are jonzing for mixed guys (as long as theyre half-white) so being in asia has been flattering. i mean, i dont get to sleep with models back home. tho i grew up being told i was handsome by old ladies, enough doubt was cast by a society where asian american men are seen as penis-less, dog eating, wife beating uglies - in a word: undesirable. as i grew up and came out, i was introduced to the compelling option of being the effeminate boy-servant to an old white man. i dunno, i just didnt go for that.

its fun being pretty here. if i get too lame, i can just head back to the states, where faces like mine are generally invisible, except to the fetishists.

wait, what was my point here? ...oh yeah, i shagged a model.